我爱你

This is the word that repeat in my head right now,

the feeling is unexplainable with word,

knowing this feeling really make who i am right now,

you are the reason i living till now,

before i know this 3 words,

i am nothing,

i feel life is so boring,

don care either if i left this world or wat,

but now i wan to stay,

so that i can continue be with you,

you complete me,

i am not me anymore without you,

know matter wat happen,

my life is not complete without you,

even tot distance separate us,

but our heart will always together,

walking next beside a lake,

full of mist covering my scene,

the water cold as the midnite wind,

the sound of the breze whispering in my ear,

someone is waiting me across the lake,

choosing to ignore or to find out,

the time to choose my heart or brain,

and decide to choose my heart on that time,

swim cross the lake,

all over the mist,

just to meet u other side,

when we meet,

my mouth carve this 3 words,

that is just mean for you,

我爱你

The perfect Ending

Been really active in my blog in this few days cause i got no other ppl to refer on my problem ...

so after hour of thinking i guess my choices is wrong after all....

i make someone hurt as painful as it hurt me ..

really sorry , even tot u stop asking to saying that,

i don blame u in anymatter as for ur information,

cause i know this for a long time ago,

and i try to ignore the fact that is true until i found it out myself,

my logical is full with torn paper covering my empty brain,

sometime, hurt in the heart is more hurt than in outside,

believe me, i know it myself,

i know u hv this scare feeling,

i cant denied that i have it too,

sometime i more scare than u do...

when we get together the time i just cant find out the reason why,

is just based on wat my heart trying to tell,

i know is imposimble at the start but my heart is not listening,

i glad i listen to it,

that is something that i wont regret,

however, sometime i feel unsure, unsafe, unsecure,

why ?

cause i feel that i am not ur 1st choices,

y i feel like this ?

cause i cant find the answer in that moment,

answer of y we are together,

knowing this word of LOVE is seem harder that it seen,

after i knowing it,

i try to hide it from u, didnt matter how suffering i need to endure,

how much pain, is better to me take all of it rather than share it with someone else,

having bad dream since that,

unexplainable dream,

feeling scare is full with darkness in my glommy room,

i not wrinting this to make ppl feel bad,

i writting this to show myself that i am not alone,

the truth is ,

i don't care this anymore,

i just can't live without you,

its been 4 months already,

time fly very fast,

ur smile bring joy to my world,

ur voice is like angel calling from heaven,

ur character remind me of myself when i feeling excited,

the point is : I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH

no matter wat happen,

even if the world destroy,

i just wan to be with you,

even tot i cant be compare with ur memory of 1 year with 4 months,

but i will always be with you,

even tot i am not u really wanted,

but i still be with you,

i would be happy just to see you happy,

this is the truth word from a heartless guy,

us msg make my day,

everyday waiting for ur msg just make my day joy again,

even tot i cant see myself in the mirror anymore,

but i see you,

that is enough to make me live on,

when we just started,

i try to figure some unrealistic answer,

and is really hurt me a lot,

so, i try to denied the fact is true,

until i know is true of course,

when u talk about other guy in front of me,

it really make me feel uncomfort,

is not because of jealousy,

is cause i donno the answer,

and i trying to stop myself from knowing,

about the other day,

where we went to serdang,

i know from the start when i meet u,

that the real fact is u not wat to be with me,

is so obvious on ur expression,

when u with me and u with someone else,

i dont really care on that time,

cause just to feel my time that i don wan to spend my day alone,

instead i try to avoid this matter,

not to get involve,

but my heart is really killing me,

if that day,

u would make a choices again,

and i know it wont be me,

that make me feel unsecure in the start,

sorry for hiding this from u,

is tot better to not letting u know,

sorry seem to be the hardest word,

but wat i say is true,

that i really love u now,

and i not going to giving up on u,

cause u are my everyday life,

love and miss you every moment,

This is a song dedicated for u and any1 out there :

just to let u know that u are not alone

hope 1 day i can sing this to you,

another day has gone,

i am still all alone,

how could this be,

you are not here with me,

never say goodbye,

someone tell me y,

did u hv to go,

and leave my world so cold,

everyday i sit and ask myself,

how did love slip away,

something whispers in my ear and says,

that YOU ARE NOT ALONE,

i am here with you,

though u are far away,

i here to stay,

YOU ARE NOT ALONE,

i am here with u,

though we far apart,

you are always in my heart,

YOU ARE NOT ALONE,

just the other nite,

i thought i heard u cry,

ask me to come ,

and hold u in my arms,

i can hear ur prayers,

ur burdens i will bear,

but 1st i need ur hand,

so forever we can begin,

everyday i sit and ask myself,

how did love slip away,

then something whisper in my ears and says,

that YOU ARE NOT ALONE ,

for i am here for u ,

thought u r far away,

i am here to stay,

for YOU ARE NOT ALONE,

i am here to stay ,

for YOU ARE NOT ALONE,

i am here with you,

though we are far apart,

YOU are always in my heart and,

YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

tribute to MJ for his lovely song

and also that i love you till i die....

it didnt matter anymore wat u been done,

cause i just wan to make sure YOU ARE NOT ALONE,

and i be here with you.

I LOVE YOU MY DEAR.

我不配

i promise myself to not listen this song when i enter University. however is seem to promise something that u find is posimble to do ..... this song really feel up my mood back as i know this since matriks ...

but y do i listen to it now ?

only my clossest fren will know y i listen to this....

take back some of my memory,

miss the time where every1 sing together in the room listening tru my handphone in 4a.m in the morning ...

but is all chance now .... i listen it alone in this lonely room full of darkness bluring me tru the sight.

i not going to post the lyric as i don wan to understand wat it really say ..

i donno y i post this song myself, don ask me anything,

keep thinking of it even tot i told myself to stop thinking,

i cant see myself in the mirror anymore,

the only think upset me is u didnt tell me earlier,

but choose to let me find out on my own,

my mind full of darkness and full of unlogical thought,

however i told that i am a stupid guy,

trying to push away all my common sence and based on my heart,

is really hard for me to do it,

as i say i cant blame any1 in this matter but myself for my stupidty to not realise it,

sorry if i say too much,

really hate myself of being in this state,

sorry bout that day u call me,

i lie again, is just me that not wan to answer the call,

don find me when read this,

just rant bout my 1001 feeling here,

even tot u ask me i dont even know how to explain,

just peace to u all yo ...

back to this song i always will remember of this 1 gal,

now there is another person that i need to remember.

peace yoo ~~

Rest In Peace : King of Pop

very shocked to hear news this morning when i just woke up and my roomate told me Michael Jackson had already dead~~ so i jump out from the bed and check on the internet to make sure.. and is really dead...

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/6/26/apworld/20090626071842&sec=apworld

This really shocked me as my family and i are his biggest fan ~~

now my whole family talking about it ~~

However, Michael had contribute a lot to this world even tot of his negative remark about him. Many of his song is about bringing ppl together and unite them~~

Love his song very much~

Thank you for your music Sir! May you rock the heaven with your music again!!!

exam over but still headache !!

Yo !!

Exam over already and now back to my hometown ... haha !

the question suppose to be easy but also cannot do ... damn dissapointed ..haiz~~

see my grade get wat lo !

yest went to my fren birthday party right after finishing my exam ~~

went to sungai wang ~~ Go sing K , haha ~~ even tot seldom go sing but really enjoy !!

And 1 more thing ya ...~~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIUFONG ~~

Haha

sory cause i late to reach there due to some reason... haha ~~ But at last can make it also !!

The Karaoke room ~~ very big to fit 8 ppl ...haha like vip man

Somebody come technical on that day ~~ Haha

After sing K than we went to bukit bintang area there to have our dinner.... is really quite expansive but the services was fantastic ~~ Hehe

Thinking of bringing somebody there ~~

Really nice place ~~

I having Fish and Chip~~ Quite nice but is almost de same like amigo in melaka ~~ just got extra bread only .~~ hehe

Than later today take bus at 2p.m to pudu and reach to Melaka around 4p.m

the bus really damn fast~~ a while only reach .. haha

after that went to my aunt house to know that my baby cousin is at there ~~ haha

so fun playing with her lo ~~

so fast so big already ~~ i still remember just few year back she just a baby girl and now damn active ....haha

Remind me of someone that are so cute like her ~~ hehe^^

Donno is the right thing to say it out,

but is better to let you know,

even tot is history but remind of the pass is really a pain indeed,

think again y i always feel unsecure cause i tot ur 1st choices is not me afterall,

but is an idioty to make a decision base on raw fact,

i know that nth can change now since is already a history,

sorry for my stupidty and my narrow minded mind,

but wat i say is true,

i hate myself of being like this,

however nature is not control by us,

and i can't control myself to be in this state,

as i say my last post,

i need to put this 2 word in my mind,

TRUST and BELIEVE,

not to worry cause there is nothing to worry about,

just a idea of a stupidy mind of a narrow minded person,

i hope nothing will changes !!

Peace yo,

and BTW ~~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO QIUFONG AGAIN

hehe^^

Been a long time ...

so long no come here and rant ...

wan to say busy also cannot ...haha just lazy wan to blog ...

btw my stupid 2 month 1 paper exam is this thursday ...

damn shit dude ...havent start with the 1st slide also ..

damn lazy ....

no choices la ..

cant wait going back to melaka ...wan to hv last farewell to all my fren before they going to their own Uni .... only 1 got in UM lo ...haha

better than nothing !!

that day have a crazy ride ....3 day back to back in kajang ....maybe that the reason my headache ...haha !! too many ride ....

got stomachache after ate the kajang satay ...==

damn sad leh !!

haiz~~ not enjoying when i eating also ..

being really unfaithfull to myself lately ...

tot i always say i fine but ...

is not really improtant is it ..haha

sometime the past is mean to be history,

and make us learn to not repeat history again,

but i afraid that it would not happen as i wanted too...

TRUST and BELIEVE is the words that i need this moment ...

even tot is just a small word but bring a lot changes to a individual

just wish is easy as it seem ....

peace yo !!

LA lakers is 2009 Champion !!! Kobe is MVP !

A very tired and boring day again ...

Cannot tahan everyday also like this but Final exam wan come already lo ...

die leh.....

yest do assignment from 1p.m to 5p.m

after that meeting from b5p.m until 10p.m lo

whole day also no eat ...can die leh ...good thing still survice ...hehe

2day wake up at 8a.m but only get up on 8.45a.m ...haha

need to register course for next sem lo ...so pening ..but done already la ..

My course that going to take for next sem :

Donno u can see get a not la .. if not click the link to enlarge lo ...hehe

than just now just finish my assignment and how to reward myself ? Pasar malam lo ..hehe

went to pasar malam at ss2 there .. a lot of ppl lo ..

than go Murni to take our dinner ...

damn good leh ...

most good is my dinner is rm6.50 only ...

and the best part is i ate a big plate of spagati lo ..... if eat in pizza hut also rm10++ already la

syok la ...

my spagate :

The View at pasar malam :

after pasar malam lepak in my room until 2moro la ... busy again ...haiz~~

and 1 more thing need to announce ... after 7 years LA laker finally won the 2009 NBA champion ...in a memorable event !! Is really damn good ...to bad i cannot watch the match

and my idol , Kobe Bryant got the MVP !! Haha

U r the best Laker !~

My Idol !! Kobe Bryant : won the MVP award

and 1 more video to show how great is Kobe bryant on the whole career that he is so amazing ..

NBA : where amazing happen

Kobe Bryant is Amazing !!!!!!!!

All the way Kobe !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That for now yo ... Peace !!

Assignment day !!

Suppose to do assignment today ... but cause of lazyness than pending until now also havent finish .... wtf lo ... damn la ... good thing 2moro got discussion and hope to combine the all the part la . Hope to finish by 2moro la ... damn sian the stupid assignment !

woke up 1p.m this afternoon .. haha

sleep like wat lo ..

donno y so tired ..~~

Go out dinner with a few fren ... discuss something important lo ..

go Jaya1 eat the mee donno wat la ..

i order Duck mee ... omg !! really beh tahan !!

So little but is rm10 ~~ WTF

wat to do ... later after that go cold storage buy nasi lemak ...haha .. no choices lo

haiz ~~

See so little the mee ... damn sian !!

Waste my money some more ..

eat McD more full leh !

1 more thing i wan to rant is about my idol !!

Kobe Bryant , about his life time as a player

hope to share with every1 ... hehe ^^

The Best Player in the World !!

Lakers for champion !!

Enjoying .....

Went out to midvalley to watch movie with my dear .... go watch this movie call fighting ...

not a bad movie but like too normal ...haha 

after that go lepak at midvalley for a while ..damn sian at that place already but at least is the nearest ...haha 

go dating but havent settle my assignment ...really gai la me ... donno how to do also 

now looking at the question also wan to sleep like this .... 

next week need to do presentation already ...Haiz ~~

need to settle also 

at least got a good news that the LA LAker won the 3rd game of the series and need a 1 more win to get the championship ... i have waited since 2004 for this moment when Laker lose to detroit ...

now once again the championship to bring back to LA !!

thanks to derick fisher 3 pointer 

this is where amazing happen !!

here is the highlight for game 4 ... hope u enjoy it : 

Got a shoked this morning ... don scare me like this 

i really worry until i cant sleep anymore ...

however take care in this 3 weeks ..

always in my mind and my heart.

Lazy ..... ? Me ?

Yo .... today donno y feel very lazy ...so skip class this morning .. damn rock man me ..hehe ! 

sleep until 3p.m this afternoon.... ya ... u must think i crazy ... donno la ..

anyway got a very dissapointed news ..... haiz ~~

Laker lose in Orlando .... that mean is 2-1 ...

still need 2 more game to win ... 

damn !!

cause is too disapointed i not going to post any video of magic victory !! Haha 

waiting for game 4 

Is hard for me to know ur problem and i really cant do anything but to listen, 

both are a really good friend and i can't choose a side . I just hope that nth effect in the future,

as we all are a team and we still be a team . Any problem can just ask us anytime .

is not really matter if is too personal but we wan u all to know that we are here for you ! 

Peace my bro !! 

Life is still long, there is so many chance for u some more !!

Waiting for 2moro, for wat leh ?