The perfect Ending

Been really active in my blog in this few days cause i got no other ppl to refer on my problem ...

so after hour of thinking i guess my choices is wrong after all....

i make someone hurt as painful as it hurt me ..

really sorry , even tot u stop asking to saying that,

i don blame u in anymatter as for ur information,

cause i know this for a long time ago,

and i try to ignore the fact that is true until i found it out myself,

my logical is full with torn paper covering my empty brain,

sometime, hurt in the heart is more hurt than in outside,

believe me, i know it myself,

i know u hv this scare feeling,

i cant denied that i have it too,

sometime i more scare than u do...

when we get together the time i just cant find out the reason why,

is just based on wat my heart trying to tell,

i know is imposimble at the start but my heart is not listening,

i glad i listen to it,

that is something that i wont regret,

however, sometime i feel unsure, unsafe, unsecure,

why ?

cause i feel that i am not ur 1st choices,

y i feel like this ?

cause i cant find the answer in that moment,

answer of y we are together,

knowing this word of LOVE is seem harder that it seen,

after i knowing it,

i try to hide it from u, didnt matter how suffering i need to endure,

how much pain, is better to me take all of it rather than share it with someone else,

having bad dream since that,

unexplainable dream,

feeling scare is full with darkness in my glommy room,

i not wrinting this to make ppl feel bad,

i writting this to show myself that i am not alone,

the truth is ,

i don't care this anymore,

i just can't live without you,

its been 4 months already,

time fly very fast,

ur smile bring joy to my world,

ur voice is like angel calling from heaven,

ur character remind me of myself when i feeling excited,

the point is : I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH

no matter wat happen,

even if the world destroy,

i just wan to be with you,

even tot i cant be compare with ur memory of 1 year with 4 months,

but i will always be with you,

even tot i am not u really wanted,

but i still be with you,

i would be happy just to see you happy,

this is the truth word from a heartless guy,

us msg make my day,

everyday waiting for ur msg just make my day joy again,

even tot i cant see myself in the mirror anymore,

but i see you,

that is enough to make me live on,

when we just started,

i try to figure some unrealistic answer,

and is really hurt me a lot,

so, i try to denied the fact is true,

until i know is true of course,

when u talk about other guy in front of me,

it really make me feel uncomfort,

is not because of jealousy,

is cause i donno the answer,

and i trying to stop myself from knowing,

about the other day,

where we went to serdang,

i know from the start when i meet u,

that the real fact is u not wat to be with me,

is so obvious on ur expression,

when u with me and u with someone else,

i dont really care on that time,

cause just to feel my time that i don wan to spend my day alone,

instead i try to avoid this matter,

not to get involve,

but my heart is really killing me,

if that day,

u would make a choices again,

and i know it wont be me,

that make me feel unsecure in the start,

sorry for hiding this from u,

is tot better to not letting u know,

sorry seem to be the hardest word,

but wat i say is true,

that i really love u now,

and i not going to giving up on u,

cause u are my everyday life,

love and miss you every moment,

This is a song dedicated for u and any1 out there :

just to let u know that u are not alone

hope 1 day i can sing this to you,

another day has gone,

i am still all alone,

how could this be,

you are not here with me,

never say goodbye,

someone tell me y,

did u hv to go,

and leave my world so cold,

everyday i sit and ask myself,

how did love slip away,

something whispers in my ear and says,

that YOU ARE NOT ALONE,

i am here with you,

though u are far away,

i here to stay,

YOU ARE NOT ALONE,

i am here with u,

though we far apart,

you are always in my heart,

YOU ARE NOT ALONE,

just the other nite,

i thought i heard u cry,

ask me to come ,

and hold u in my arms,

i can hear ur prayers,

ur burdens i will bear,

but 1st i need ur hand,

so forever we can begin,

everyday i sit and ask myself,

how did love slip away,

then something whisper in my ears and says,

that YOU ARE NOT ALONE ,

for i am here for u ,

thought u r far away,

i am here to stay,

for YOU ARE NOT ALONE,

i am here to stay ,

for YOU ARE NOT ALONE,

i am here with you,

though we are far apart,

YOU are always in my heart and,

YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

tribute to MJ for his lovely song

and also that i love you till i die....

it didnt matter anymore wat u been done,

cause i just wan to make sure YOU ARE NOT ALONE,

and i be here with you.

I LOVE YOU MY DEAR.